Love, Loss, and Licorice - 6/3/2006
Nothing makes takes the pain of heartache away better than licorice.
Ok. fine. but at least licorice is yummy. Red vines. Mmm.
So i've got a new song kids, posted on www.myspace.com/julieneumark. It's born out of heartache and drama and angst. It's a song about losing someone very important in my life.....someone who's had a tremendous amount of influence on the person I've become.
sorry to have "disappeared" for a bit from my blogging and such but I've been "dealing" for the past month....with life and all the goodies that come with it.
yup - the loss I speak of above has done a number on my heart. it's healing though, i'm on the mend (with occasional....ok, frequent...ALRIGHT...daily relapses). Man! no one ever prepares you for this shit, do they? it's just plain awful....there is no way out except for through...."sit in your pain." well, i channeled my creativity - at least i was distracted for a bit while producing it.
it is my first attempt at writing / arranging / performing / engineering / producing / mixing / mastering .... on my little Boss 8-track home studio. not bad but not great - at least you can get an idea where i'm going though.
it's definitely been theraputic. the song, i mean. that, and journaling. i've written almost 40 pages in the last month. it's becoming addictive. maybe i'll turn it into a novel. Or, a screenplay. Ya, everyone in LA has to have one of those.
anyway, C - you're out there, probably not reading this but if you are, i miss you and i hate you and i love you and i hope you're well and i hope you're struggling and i'm hurting - all at the same time. And, i miss me...the me that's stronger than this. the me that doesn't get wrapped up in someone and completely mind-fucked....but i'm gonna find that me again, she's just around the corner, with or without you -
Ok. fine. but at least licorice is yummy. Red vines. Mmm.
So i've got a new song kids, posted on www.myspace.com/julieneumark. It's born out of heartache and drama and angst. It's a song about losing someone very important in my life.....someone who's had a tremendous amount of influence on the person I've become.
sorry to have "disappeared" for a bit from my blogging and such but I've been "dealing" for the past month....with life and all the goodies that come with it.
yup - the loss I speak of above has done a number on my heart. it's healing though, i'm on the mend (with occasional....ok, frequent...ALRIGHT...daily relapses). Man! no one ever prepares you for this shit, do they? it's just plain awful....there is no way out except for through...."sit in your pain." well, i channeled my creativity - at least i was distracted for a bit while producing it.
it is my first attempt at writing / arranging / performing / engineering / producing / mixing / mastering .... on my little Boss 8-track home studio. not bad but not great - at least you can get an idea where i'm going though.
it's definitely been theraputic. the song, i mean. that, and journaling. i've written almost 40 pages in the last month. it's becoming addictive. maybe i'll turn it into a novel. Or, a screenplay. Ya, everyone in LA has to have one of those.
anyway, C - you're out there, probably not reading this but if you are, i miss you and i hate you and i love you and i hope you're well and i hope you're struggling and i'm hurting - all at the same time. And, i miss me...the me that's stronger than this. the me that doesn't get wrapped up in someone and completely mind-fucked....but i'm gonna find that me again, she's just around the corner, with or without you -
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