Stood Up - 2/4/2006

ok, i got stood up this morning. Well, I guess technically I got cancelled on. Of course the stander-upper/canceler probably doesn't see it that way. See, I'm obsessed and infatuated with this completely unavailable individual. So, naturally, I see it that way. My cell phone rings this morning, "Hi. I can't make it today - I'm sick." Bullshit. You're hungover. Nobody mysteriously gets sick on Saturday morning without the help of excess alcohol consumption the night before. Ok, maybe I am being a bit harsh but, come on - if you were really "sick" you could have called me yesterday to cancel. You were just out with some other chic, having fun and getting drunk while little old me was getting a good night's sleep because I've been counting the days 'til I get to see you! I told you. I'm obsessed. There is nothing sane or logical about this. And I am not proud. This is nothing new. I always fall for these "unavailables". Thank God, though, speaking as a songwriter - where do you think most of my songs come from? Although it is leading towards some nice strides in my career I am still left at (gulp) 30, never having had a real relationship. Well, by 8:45 - still clad in my boxers and wife beater - i had my guitar in hand with a verse, a pre-chorus, and the melody to a chorus written. Ah, torture yeilding creativity once again. This one's called "Tease." Hah. I am feeling much better.